Impressionists get me. Impressions stay with me, for a while if not all the way. Well, in many ways I hardly shy away from giving the stranger all thebenefit of the doubt, the first time I interact with her/ him. Even He got the same treatment. The endless amazement and reverence. Everything He said/ did was considered the holy word. Ofcourse the way it was said/ done also mattered and I placed all my bets on Him being close to perfect, whatever that standard is. After so many weeks, I have had to withdraw some of that sum from his stocks. Not to say i do not value what He says, but now I do not blindly agree to all what is said. I have bought Him down a level or two to something more Human, like many of us here. Why single out Him. My automatic assigning of that 'Super' status is pretty much a part of my initial reaction to meeting strangers. I start with complete faith, well faith may be a loosely word here. Slowly i climb down and start realising that He or She is not as chinkless as I made it to be on Days 1 to 20.
With Him, its even more drastic, and obviously too, given the frequency of our interactions.
But I already know/ knew this habit of mine. So whats new thats bothering me?
It is Phase II of the relationship. Now that I have got a clearer grasp on the ground realities, I have begun, in miniscule parts, taking Him for granted. I am like: "Oh, Him? He has to behave so and so"; " He is just being his gregarious self, so Do not take Him too seriously"..etc...etc. I fear that the heaps of respect and adoration I had piled up in such short time will start eroding in equally short duration and that I will put myself in a position of lesser trust and seriousness.
But He is just as much flesh and bones as I or You. Its the same Air, the same Milk, the same apparel brands. So Why Do I, in the first place, assign that crown of perfection to all of Them. Is it Me?, is it my Culture? Is it my extra PC nature?
Just wait till I meet the next Him/ Her. My perfect smiling mask gets put on and I subconsciously assign the stranger to the throne.
Got to keep a watch on this, If i have to Do any better in......
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
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But why does he/she need to come down from where he/she started. Do you think, you need to judge people so much, when probably what they are public is not even true. Think about this.
nair, that was amazing!
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